Need a touch from Jesus today?

~Do you long to know Him more?
~Do you long to glorify Him so much more in all areas of your life?
~Do you feel like a lost sheep in the craziness of this life at times?
~Do you read the Word with a sense of checking it off your list or are you able to search for God like your looking for the contact lens you dropped or your diamond wedding ring you seem to not be able to find?

You know their are times in life,
many times, where I need to stop
and have some intimate moments with Jesus.

Receiving a touch from Jesus
today can be the encouragement you need too!

I watched this video after my sister, Kristi, sent this to me and was moved to tears. I felt the Lord's presence and sensed Him reach down and touch my spirit! God knows each of our hearts and hears our cries, our needs and our anxieties.

God's love and faithfulness to us is beyond understanding.
Who am I but a sinner
saved by the GRACE of Jesus Christ.

(Due to internet filters you might not be able to view click here)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jng2cVItdI)

This video was on a massage in
Matthew which is an area I am reading through right now.

"And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows" Matthew 10:30-31

Jesus is aware of EVERYTHING
that happens even to the sparrows,
and I (you) are far more valuable to Him than they are!

He cares much more about us than the birds of the air. He knows the exact number of hairs on our head and in Isaiah it says we are, each one of us personally, engraved onto the palms of His hands. Nothing can snatch us out of His hands!

Thank you Nicki, Kristi's good friend from church, for allowing God to work through you to encourage my heart!
(New Life Pentecostals of Toledo)

Born at 26 weeks and doing great!

Little Jeffery is doing really good! His mom and dad have been by his side at the hospital both day and night! He is starting to officially nurse this week and it seems like that won't be a huge deal for this little guy;)

God is so amazing and we are so thankful for His continued faithfulness in all of our lives!

Thank you for praying and for checking in for updates on how my family is doing.

Notes from Kristi....

Mom and sisters! Kristi top left.

Date: Saturday, January 31, 2009, 4:05 AM

hi everyone, I just wanted to send out a simple email to say, i am still kicking....lol.....I was down really sick from my first chemo treatment, and then had to have another one this past Tuesday. When i say really sick, i was very very sick, i really thought i was dying inside,......for real ( well, that is what they told me they were gonna do,.)"kill me, with out , really killing me" wow, they weren't kidding, i was down for about 8 days, couldn't do simple things.... like type or read, or talk....i was so so weak, and the pain in my body and muscles was unbelievable, i can't even explain what it felt like.. so I'm not gonna try, but the good thing is, i am ok today....

I will take it....i have a break this coming week, which means i skip one week of chemo. If they did what they did for my first chemo 3 times straight in a row, ( 3 tues in row) i would die.... so..THANK YOU JESUS........ my body can have a break.I did have chemo twice now, but this past tues. was half the meds.... and chemo... but i was still so sick, that it was one of the worst chemo's i have ever had, it took everything in me not to get out of there....but God finished it up, and after 4 hrs of poison going into my body and still feeling like i was gonna throw up everywhere, not to mention i had a really bad migraine...i made it, so long story short, lol, i completed the first cycle, (i have to have 2 cycles, which means 4 times going to get chemo)I will be starting over again, with the whole process again, day 1 of chemo, is when they give me 5 hrs of chemo. and they send me home with so many pills. In 4 days i have to take like 60 pills.. ( oh, did i mention i hate taking even Tylenol )...really, it's crazy.

I will be very sick again, i think i have 11 days to go, and counting down, but God is good, Jason's mom will be arriving to help take care of the kids so Jason can go to work.... He used all his vacation, poor guy, we had to use it last year for cancer, and the 2 yrs before that for the birth of kristalynn and holden... so whats a vacation anyways????? Jason took really good care of me those 8 days, so i thank the Lord for that time he got to care for me and the kids, cause i couldn't do anything, it even hurt to smile, and you all know i love to laugh and smile.....ok enough about my hair started falling out last night , yes again, so you will all have to bare with me....on the whole scarf, wig ,balled thing........you can pray for me for peace and confidence in the Lord, with how my appearance is gonna be, i am starting to struggle with pictures of me this past summer time fun in the sun and the 30 pounds i lost after the first cancer in April 08, and how i felt healthy and so happy. and free........and now realizing i have gained wt from chemo and stress , and now my hair is falling out again.

I just pray God will take that pain/ emotions away from me completely, so I can concentrate on living and being healthy with my family for many years to come big or small, balled or not....

Thank you so much for caring about my family and myself, and for reading this long winded, poor wrote email..... i thank you for your constant prayers....God is doing good threw this cancer, the Lord has provided different people ,taking on different roles, from food, to support, to coming and helping me with the kids these past few days, threw the prayer wheel, to hair cuts for my family, to having a person who wants to go with me to Cleveland for 3 wks to be my caregiver...... it's unbelievable ... God's' favor started being very clear 2 days ago, and to that we are very very thankful...we are blessed,

the pfaff family

Last Tuesday, we found out that we are pregnant (8 1/2wks)!!!!
Oh, my goodness is right! Of course we talked about the possibility of having more biological kids down the road...but not this year and definitely not now. Preventive measures can't stop the Lord's plans...lol

We are so excited (maybe its twins...I'm a twin, Aaron's mother is a twin and Aaron has a twin brother & sister so each pregnancy we wonder about that one!!!lol) but the last week has been an extremely emotional one. Initially it was challenging choosing to trust God's perfect timing and plan.
On Thursday we decided to share the news with our case worker while also having to inform her that we aren't able to take Dannijah and Toriano's twin sisters (who are going to be born any day now).

That was one of the hardest things I have EVER had to do or say .

We choose to believe He is only protecting us from something around the corner that we can not see...and for that we are very grateful!!!!

I am reminded that God never said things would be easy...lol
I could easily have chosen to be depressed about the situation all week. With the Lords help I have chosen not to go that route and despite the pain of giving up all the planning, excitement and emotional attachment to the twins (these last five months) and increasing the chances of losing Dannijah and Toriano...we are choosing NOT to lean on our own understanding but TO TRUST IN HIM! Our mighty and loving God is in control and loves us more than we could ever know.

After all He only has our best interest at heart!

Children services will try and find a home that will take all four children (Dannijah, Toriano and their twin sisters). If circumstances were different we would have loved to take in all four.

Possibly having to see Dannijah and Toriano uprooted again, after experiencing many moves and much hurt already in their short little lives, is so hard for any one think about. We are trusting God again in this area.

If the Lord desires for Dannijah and Toriano to stay with us forever ...we trust that He will bring the peace and healing from not being able to take their sisters. Their is so much heartache when siblings can not stay together.

If he does bring a family to adopt all four of them together we pray that it is a family who lives their lives to glorify the Lord. At the same time we choose to trust that He will heal our wounds and carry our family through that time.

Will you continue to pray with us that their mother will find the COURAGE and take back her life over these next few months. That she will honestly deal with her issues and be able to come to know the ONE who can heal her completely, the ONE who can unconditionally love her the way she has NEVER been loved before and the ONE who can save anyone from the pit of hopelessness and death. Pray that her heart will be softened towards our family and for the light of Jesus to shine down deep into her heart creating an urgent need and desire in her to know who this "ONE" is!

God has given me a love for their mother (despite her feelings towards our family) and I whole heartily love her as a sister who is lost. I am so thankful for Him working in this way!

Thank you for praying for her, for the kids and for our family!

Toasting in the New Year!

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Aaron, Brayden, Holden, Faith, Austin, Ethan, Toriano, Kristalyn, Dannijah, & Jamithy - We are ringing in the New Year with my sister's kids for 10 days! Thank goodness for our 10 second timer on our camera!

Kristi and Jason are in Texas...

at the number #1 cancer center in the US.
She is there for 10 days having many scans and test run. Please continue to pray for her and her family. Thank you so very much!

Happy Birthday Toriano! Is adoption still a possibility?

Adding these two to our family these last four months has been a joy! Of course we have had many discouraging moments wrestling with anger issues and screaming. However, God continues to be so faithful and keeps reminding us of how far they have come!

We officially have 3 two year olds in the house...lol
At least until late February when Dannijah will turn 3.

The possibility of adopting these two is still on the table; if you will! Aaron and I have not shared with most of you about the possible opportunity of taking their twin sisters when they are born in Feb. or March. We found out the mother was expecting twin girls 4 months ago and have been considering the pros, cons and challenges since then.
Will you pray for us as we make such a HUGE decision...one that we don't take lightly and that NEEDS to be covered in prayer.

This last month I really felt that these children were going to go home very soon. I'm not sure why but I just did.
There has been some huge issues that have taken place this last week in the case. In fact, the issues are so big that we wonder if adoption will be a possibility soon than later.

We trust God and are praying for all parties involved, for protection, and for His wisdom.