Last Tuesday, we found out that we are pregnant (8 1/2wks)!!!!
Oh, my goodness is right! Of course we talked about the possibility of having more biological kids down the road...but not this year and definitely not now. Preventive measures can't stop the Lord's plans...lol

We are so excited (maybe its twins...I'm a twin, Aaron's mother is a twin and Aaron has a twin brother & sister so each pregnancy we wonder about that one!!!lol) but the last week has been an extremely emotional one. Initially it was challenging choosing to trust God's perfect timing and plan.
On Thursday we decided to share the news with our case worker while also having to inform her that we aren't able to take Dannijah and Toriano's twin sisters (who are going to be born any day now).

That was one of the hardest things I have EVER had to do or say .

We choose to believe He is only protecting us from something around the corner that we can not see...and for that we are very grateful!!!!

I am reminded that God never said things would be easy...lol
I could easily have chosen to be depressed about the situation all week. With the Lords help I have chosen not to go that route and despite the pain of giving up all the planning, excitement and emotional attachment to the twins (these last five months) and increasing the chances of losing Dannijah and Toriano...we are choosing NOT to lean on our own understanding but TO TRUST IN HIM! Our mighty and loving God is in control and loves us more than we could ever know.

After all He only has our best interest at heart!

Children services will try and find a home that will take all four children (Dannijah, Toriano and their twin sisters). If circumstances were different we would have loved to take in all four.

Possibly having to see Dannijah and Toriano uprooted again, after experiencing many moves and much hurt already in their short little lives, is so hard for any one think about. We are trusting God again in this area.

If the Lord desires for Dannijah and Toriano to stay with us forever ...we trust that He will bring the peace and healing from not being able to take their sisters. Their is so much heartache when siblings can not stay together.

If he does bring a family to adopt all four of them together we pray that it is a family who lives their lives to glorify the Lord. At the same time we choose to trust that He will heal our wounds and carry our family through that time.

Will you continue to pray with us that their mother will find the COURAGE and take back her life over these next few months. That she will honestly deal with her issues and be able to come to know the ONE who can heal her completely, the ONE who can unconditionally love her the way she has NEVER been loved before and the ONE who can save anyone from the pit of hopelessness and death. Pray that her heart will be softened towards our family and for the light of Jesus to shine down deep into her heart creating an urgent need and desire in her to know who this "ONE" is!

God has given me a love for their mother (despite her feelings towards our family) and I whole heartily love her as a sister who is lost. I am so thankful for Him working in this way!

Thank you for praying for her, for the kids and for our family!